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I’m El Edwards, your mental health champion and positive psychology geek.
Irrepressible silver-lining spotter with a compulsion to say the stuff most other people only say in their heads, I'm on a mission to end the stigma around mental health.
It began with a random comment. A well-meaning friend:
"Nobody likes keeping so much stuff inside their heads but they do it because they have to. Get over it!"
I started to disagree, to argue the toss, make a case … And watched as eyes glazed over. Because really, what was the point? And then I started to get frustrated.
Why does it have to be like that? Who says? What about the time someone didn’t keep it in their head? The time someone said it out loud?
So I started to write it down. Over the next few months. Any time. Every time. When something scary was said out loud and the world didn’t fall down. Evidence. Proof. Vindication.
Because I had to believe that honest and real was possible, even if I only said it to myself.
"If I die, you’ve got to promise not to put the children in childcare."
- Me. To my husband. Waiting for smear test results.
"Do you think I’m mental?"
- After a conversation where he totally didn’t understand what we were arguing about and the only answer I could give was tears.
"I just feel so lonely I’m surrounded by three children, husband, friends who love me, family, ditto. How dare I be lonely? All I can do right now is cry."
- Me. Realising that my roller coaster of emotions really might not be normal.
"I’m sleeping over in their house so I don’t get woken up early by your kids."
- My gorgeous baby brother. On the day we learned that sometimes honesty hurts. (Other lessons learned that day: It hurts but it heals quick too. *Tears and hugs optional.)
"I think I might be pregnant."
- I really don’t like surprises and besides, after having these three we gave all the baby clothes away! (I wasn’t)
"I ate two kit-kats for breakfast."
- 'Nuff said. 😉
"I’ve changed. Maybe you’d be better off, happier, with someone else?"
- Me. To my husband. When I realised I was stronger than the timid girl he married. (He said he wouldn’t be.)
"Sometimes I think I’m too selfish and I shouldn’t have had kids."
- Just saying that out loud made me cry. Lots.
"I’d rather work than fall asleep in front of the telly."
- Ouch! That did not go down well.
"I don’t care that everyone else watches telly after the kids are in bed. I don’t want to."
- *raised eyebrows*
"I really, really know that I need this but I only have $8. Can I pay that weekly?"
- The day I learned that amazing things happen when you be honest with the scary stuff.
"I’d like to just get off the map for a couple of days, but if I do, then nothing gets done."
- A wonderful client admitting that, even when you love what you do, sometimes it all just gets too much.
"I bloody can do this."
- Me. Determined.
All that stuff, out there in the open … and look … the world did not fall down!
And so with my evidence in hand, I started on a quest. What if being honest and saying that stuff out loud helped people to be happy? Less alone with it all? More understood?
That was 2011. Fast-forward several years and several business iterations and finally, I'm back on the path God set me on all those years ago.
Honesty, knowing yourself and a place to scream when it all gets too much (because this self-awareness and being honest with yourself stuff can be a right old pain in the arse sometimes!) All wrapped up with a shiny (orange!) bow of fun on the top.
I'm here to talk openly about mental health, the "dark side" of entrepreneurism, and offer tools, support and resources to help bring more joy to the journey.
How? By bringing together like-minded Jesus geeks to create a community focussed on love, laughter & real life conversation.
Why? To help you feel less alone!
I don’t believe in checklists or the need to make a bunch of changes as the secret to real, long-lasting day to day happiness and success.
What I do believe in is the power of community, a safe place for you to be you, embracing your inner weirdo, letting her out to play, so you can apply carefully chosen bible-friendly brain hacks and get real about what’s going on inside your head.
And that’s why I created the Faith & Business Playground.
I can't wait to show you around!